True Disaster - Tove Lo




The Experience: I'm gonna get hurt. I'm gonna get hurt. Come on... When you're not sure if the relationship is worth it, but you're too tired to get out...



Music video: An unidentified woman pours gasoline on Tove Lo's crashed sedan. Tove Lo gets out and the rest of the song is a back and forth between her desire to run, and the attraction of the fatal girl. In the end Tove Lo runs, only to find the exact same scene - crashed cars and the girl - waiting for her down the street. She can't escape. So she turns and walks back. The mysterious woman is waiting for her, and lights herself on fire as Tove Lo approaches. The whole video is concentrated nihilism. Tove Lo has no where to go. Nothing makes sense, and as much as it seems she wants to claw the situation out of her head, there's no changing it. She crashed, and can't even reach out to the woman who hit her head on, because she sets herself on fire. No one wins. There was nothing to win.

The Meaning of True Disaster: Tove Lo puts a communal beat and feel (complete with a chorus of snapping fingers, barn dance style) to something that is actually very lonely: the self-destructive need to push the limits past what's fun - pretty boys - past what's bad - we get dirty - all the way to self-destruction - I know I'm gonna get hurt. Like she explained about Lady Wood in her pillow talk session (here), the whole album, and True Disaster in particular, focuses on the rush - keep playing my heartstrings faster and faster, you can be just what I want, my true disaster. That beat is exciting... but it doesn't tell you what you'll feel like after the rush is done and gone.

Ask yourself: What are you willing to pay for a high?

Album: Lady Wood (2016)

LYRICS:

Pretty boys that didn't teach me things I didn't know
They don't have the thing that I need, but they don't know they don't
You got whole thing about ya and I can't hide my feels
Pretty girls that always die out, need another sex appeal

Say come on, zero f-ucks about it
Come on, I know I'm gonna get hurt
Come on, zero f-cks about it
Come on

Keep playing my heartstrings faster and faster
You can be just what I want, my true disaster
Keep playing my heartstrings faster and faster
You can be just what I want, my true disaster

Pretty girls that like it fancy but you don't keep it clean
We get dirty and we go hard, some thing's we don't mean
Tell me no one's gonna get ya I'm just straight up mad
I fall in love, roll up beside me and you're just as bad

Say come on, zero f-cks about it
Come on, I know I'm gonna get hurt
Come on, zero f-cks about it
Come on

Keep playing my heartstrings faster and faster
You can be just what I want, my true disaster
Keep playing my heartstrings faster and faster
You can be just what I want, my true disaster

Keep playing it like
Keep playing it like
Keep playing it like
Keep playing it like

I'm gonna get hurt
I'm gonna get hurt
Come on

Keep playing my heartstrings faster and faster
You can be just what I want, my true disaster
Keep playing my heartstrings faster and faster
You can be just what I want, my true disaster

Keep playing it like
Keep playing it like
Keep playing it like
Keep playing it like


by Benjamin O'Loughlin