wish you were gay - Billie Eilish




The Experience: All you do is look the other way...  rejection...

Music video: Still waiting.

The Meaning of wish you were gay: In Billie Eilish's own words, “I wrote this song about a guy that really was not interested in me, and it made me feel horrible. So the song is called ‘wish you were gay.’ And that’s so not meant to be offensive in any way. It literally means that I wish he was gay so he didn’t like me for an actual reason instead of the fact that he didn’t like me.” (Instagram livestream here). wish you were gay is a study in the insecurity that rejection causes - all you do is look the other way. It's all to easy to take that lack of love as a judgement of who you are and what you're worth - I just kinda wish you were gay to spare my pride to give your lack of interest an explanation.

Ask yourself: Do you base your worth on others' love and affection for you?

Album: - 2018

LYRICS:


Baby, I don't feel so good
Six words you never understood
I'll never let you go
Five words you never say
I laugh alone like nothing's wrong
Four days has never felt so long
If three's a crowd and two was us
One slipped away

I just wanna make you feel okay
But all you do is look the other way
I can't tell you how much I wish I didn't wanna stay
I just kinda wish you were gay

Is there a reason we're not through?
Is there a twelve step just for you?
Our conversation's all in blue
Eleven heys (hey, hey, hey, hey)
Ten fingers tearing out my hair
Nine times you never made it there
I ate alone at seven, you were six minutes away

How am I supposed to make you feel okay
When all you do is walk the other way?
I can't tell you how much I wish I didn't wanna stay
I just kinda wish you were gay

To spare my pride
To give your lack of interest an explanation
Don't say, I'm not your type
Just say that I'm not your preferred sexual orientation
I'm so selfish
But you make me feel helpless, yeah
And I can't stand another day
Stand another day

I just wanna make you feel okay
But all you do is look the other way
I can't tell you how much I wish I didn't wanna stay
I just kinda wish you were gay
I just kinda wish you were gay
I just kinda wish you were gay


review by Benjamin O'Loughlin

No comments :