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Not 20 Anymore - Bebe Rexhha

The Experience: Why would we ever do somethin' instead of fallin' into the bed right now?... Sex.
The Vibe: Confidence.
The Topic: Coming of age.
The Value: Maturity.
The Tension: Agin' (Not young and "perfect" anymore.) vs. Like wine (Maturity is better than "perfection".)

Music video: The coloring is cold and bleak and a little jaded: experience and realism have set in. But Bebe Rexha stance and face exude strength and pride: accomplishment and self-knowledge. For her, well past twenty, it's already about self-mastery. For the twenty's who speak, there's more uncertainty. Satisfaction is tempered by regret, fear, and the knowledge that there is still so much more to grow and so much more to prove.

The Meaning of Not 20 Anymore: Bebe Rexha compares her current maturity with her former 20 year-old self... And finds the self-mastery that maturity brings is so much better than "flawless" youth: beauty is more than a number (size). Maturity means lines that weren't there before. But it also means you're stronger and wiser. In the end, twenty is only exciting because you still have someplace to go, and you're finally strong enough to start getting there.

Ask yourself: Are you "flawless"? Or mature?

Album: - 2019

LYRICS:


[Music video: "Twenty?" "Reaching twenty you have a lot of responsibilities." "Maybe you get to know yourself better, and know what you're like. 'Cause at twenty I gues you're still looking for what you're like." "Yeah, I'm twenty years old." "Just twenty years old." "Still so many obstacles, so much to accomplish, you know?" "So I'm, scared now."]

No, I'm not 20 anymore
Don't try to make me feel insecure
'Cause if one things for sure
I don't wanna be

I feel so good in my skin (Skin)
Should I let you go or should I let you in?
Oh, baby don't need no one to show me what to do, yeah

Beauty's more than a number
When I was younger I didn't know that
And if you gave me the chance
I wouldn't go back (Back, back)

No, I'm not 20 anymore (20 anymore)
Don't try to make me feel insecure
'Cause I'm agin' like wine
I get better with time, yes I do (Yes I do)

And no, I'm not 20 anymore (20 anymore)
The lines on my face, they weren't there before
But I'm wiser, I'm stronger
From all of the life I've been through (I've been through)
Oh and if one thing's for sure
I don't wanna be 20 anymore

[Music video: "I think I thought twenty was so big, I thought I was going to be such a grownup." "I thought I'd be a lot more mature, and maybe settled?" "I would like to be more consistently happy." "I stopped hating myself as much." "I know I do have some fears in me, I just don't know right now-"]

Why lie 'bout how old I am?
When I'm a better lover
Than I was in 2010
Oh, baby, let me show you all the things my body do, yeah

Beauty's more than a number
When I was younger, wish I knew that
And now I'm not afraid
Won't hold myself back (Back, back)

[Music video: "I still sort of feel unsettled." "I thought I would have had myself together by now, but-" "It's kind of been in the middle of being a teenager and being an adult. It's a bit scary." "Twenty's still figuring things out, and screwing up, and-" "I'd like to think I'd have things more figured out." "I'm not excited about getting old." "You find yourself feeling lost every so often even if you're not lost." "I'm just trying to find my bearings, really." "Like  normal, you are ordinary, you are nobody, and-"]

No, I'm not 20 anymore (20 anymore)
Don't try to make me feel insecure
'Cause I'm agin' like wine
I get better with time, yes I do (Yes I do)

And no, I'm not 20 anymore (20 anymore)
The lines on my face, they weren't there before
But I'm wiser, I'm stronger
From all of the life I've been through (I've been through)
Oh and if one thing's for sure
I don't wanna be 20 anymore

[Music video: "This is, this is how I am." "But I have no idea what I will be." "I don't like myself." "You only got one chance to live, so, you need to do something when you're young." "Yeah, I am looking forward to the future."]

Oh oh-oh. Ah ah-oh. Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh.

review by Benjamin O'Loughlin

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