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Pillowcase - Gabbie Hanna

The Experience: I don't wanna come to your party but I want the invitation... I'm torn between the darkness I can't tear myself away from and the light I desperately need.
The Vibe: A frantic heart-racing sense of danger.
The Topic: Depression.
The Value: Happiness.
The Tension: Really like the feel of being lonely (I keep to my personal prison) vs. But I'm desperate for attention (even though I'm crying out for help).

Music video: Trapped: Gabbie Hanna is alternately locked in a glass case, tied up in her bedroom, and alone in the dark. Sullied: in the glass case she is dirtied and drowned by pitch black water, black goo pours down the walls and over her lamp and her bed, and in the dark the gown that begins white in every other scene is already pure black even before she drops her umbrella to rain soak her to the bone. Oppressed: the clock in her bedroom always reads 3AM - the symbolic time of evil and the devil, 12 hours removed from 3PM when Jesus Christ died on the cross to save the world. Finally, she's not alone: her reflection in the mirror - the monster - has a voice and mind of its own.

The Meaning of Pillowcase: Depression. Gabbie Hanna sings about the frantic pain of being trapped. You cry out for validation and attention and affection and love and for God to solve your problems. But the darkness has you by the throat and instead of coming to your party and hearing you say you're sorry and letting someone touch you... you only hear nah and you're trapped by the conviction that you're toxic - trust me when I tell you not to touch me and our reflection on my windowpane shows the nightmare  - and your tears are wasted on your pillowcase instead of someone else's love. Life could be so much more: Our chemistry's irrefutable and I'll love you till you die. But it isn't. And the darkness says it won't be.

Ask yourself: How can you break out of depression? How do the people you could love and care for you break in?

EP: 2WAYMIRROR - 2019

LYRICS:


[Music video: This isn't fun for me.]

I don't wanna come to your party
But I want the invitation
I don't need to hear you say you're sorry
But I need the validation
Really like the feel of being lonely
But I'm desperate for attention
Trust me when I tell you not to touch me
But I'm craving your affection

Our chemistry's irrefutable
And I'll love you till you die
I'll come to your funeral
But I won't promise to cry

Spilling teardrops on my pillowcase
My mascara always goes to waste (always goes to)
Drip on my pillowcase
Drip on my pillow (my pillow) case
Drip on my pillowcase
Drip (drip), drip (drip)

Doctors tell me medicate my heartbreak
But I love to keep it macabre
Telling God my problems solve 'em, answer my prayers
He answered but the answer was "nah"

Our chemistry's irrefutable
And I'll love you till you die
I'll come to your funeral
But I won't promise to cry

Spilling teardrops on my pillowcase
My mascara always goes to waste (always goes to)
Drip on my pillowcase
Drip on my pillow (my pillow) case
Drip on my pillowcase
Drip (drip), drip (drip)

Our reflection on my windowpane
Shows the nightmare
Call me by my name
(What have I?, what have I?, what have-?)

Drip on my pillowcase
Drip on my pillow (my pillow) case
Drip on my pillowcase
Drip (drip), drip (drip)

Drip on my pillowcase
Drip on my pillow (my pillow) case
Drip on my pillowcase
Drip (drip), drip (drip)

[Music video: It's like I'm so f-cking exhausted.]

review by Benjamin O'Loughlin

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