Until I Bleed Out - The Weeknd

The Experience: I'm so terrified... Clarity doesn't always bring the courage needed to escape...
The Vibe: Despairing.
The Topic: Addiction. Change. Conversion.
The Value: Hope.
The Tension: I wanna cut you outta my dreams 'til I'm bleeding out (willing to make any sacrifice to get clean) VS. I'm bleeding out (but I'm so far gone I might not make it).

Music video: Trapped. That's The Weeknd as he fades in and out of consciousness. Trapped by the people around him who don't care but won't let go of him. Trapped by the madhouse that swirls around him. Trapped by the drugs that muddle his senses.

The Meaning of Until I Bleed Out: The Weeknd takes a step back from the tragedy that's been unfolding from Heartless through Blinding Lights and into In Your Eyes. The feel of the song is a step out of time, almost out of body, as The Weeknd takes stock of just how bad things are. He wants to return to reality  - I just wanna feel the ground when I'm coming down - because it can't be any worse than where his drug-fueled flight has taken him - I don't wanna touch the sky no more. He's willing to make any sacrifice - I wanna cut you outta my dreams 'til I'm bleeding out. There's finally clarity: I don't need it anymore. But this clarity isn't victory: I'm terrified. He can't act on this newfound clarity - I'm so paralyzed - until he comes back down. And as the music winds down and distorts back into the muddled normal for After Hours, that wish starts to feel hopeless again, no matter how much he despairingly repeats it: I keep telling myself I don't need it anymore.

Ask yourself: How do you go from clarity to lasting change?

Album: After Hours (2020)

LYRICS:


I can't move, I'm so paralyzed
I'm so paralyzed
I can't explain why I'm terrified
I'm so terrified

Well, I don't wanna touch the sky no more
I just wanna feel the ground when I'm coming down
It's been way too long
And I don't even wanna get high no more
I just want it out of my life
Out of my life, out

I wanna cut you outta my dreams
'Til I'm bleeding out
'Til I'm bleeding
I wanna cut you outta my mind
'Til I'm bleeding out
'Til I'm bleeding
I wanna cut you outta my dreams
Woah, I'm bleeding out
Girl, I'm bleeding
I wanna cut you outta my mind
'Cause I'm bleeding out
Oh, I'm bleeding
Girl, I'm bleeding

I keep telling myself I don't need it
I keep telling myself I don't need it anymore
I keep telling myself I don't need it anymore
Need it anymore

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